Not falling apart.2 Oct 2012
It's been 4 weeks since I finished work and 2 weeks since the boy went back to India and I'm getting pretty good at lying now.Especially to the 'How are you?' question - Not working and being here alone is pretty depressing, so I have found that the real answer isn't what people want to hear so I've got good at avoiding eye contact and telling everyone I am ok.
But there are small things keeping me sane, mostly the fact I'm not totally alone and I have the puppy here - just the fact I have to get up and get dressed in the mornings so our other puppy club friends don't think I'm crazy helps. As do the puppy cuddles and the the craziness he brings.
There are trips to see friends & my best mates hen-do's.
And we have skype. The boy and I skype almost every day. Flash hasn't quite got it yet and can't figure out where the voice is coming from, but maybe he will in the next 3 weeks.
There are new friends met online that have spilt into my real life.
There are poptarts.
And there has been a lot of random crafting. Crafting for me and for friends and just because. Crafting that I'm going to get my ass in gear and share with you. Soon. I have a little handbag post lined up in my head that I'll hopefully share with you later this week.
It's not all bad. I just have to dig a little deeper to get past the feeling that I'm not awfully worthwhile and find the things that make me smile.